Trash Can

I know you are extraordinary I know you are lovely You're just like an angle in the beautiful world. It's so fucking easy to fall for you Those dazzling eyes That charming smile The way you talk The way you walk The way you treat people But why you treat me like I'm a Shit?! You don't even bother to look into my eyes! You make me like I am nothing Like I'm just a statue in the corner of room You don't say a thing to me like I'm disgusting creature alive Why is that? Where did I go wrong?!

I'm a fool who trust your words. I should keep it in my mind that those are just words and you never mean it. I should keep it in mind that you never put you heart in it when your tongue said it or when your fingers typed it.

I feel like the happiest feeling is when you know that you're loved back by someone you love deeply. You'll feel him everywhere. He'll be the first thing that come up in your mind when you're awake and the last thing you remember before you fall asleep. You'll always feel he's near and be there when you need him no matter how far he is actually. It really doesn't matter that he's a million light years away. That warmness of the love he give you is always covering your heart, give you those rosy cheeks whenever you remember his smile. And nothing u could do, but smiling too. . Hey there, I miss you too. :)

Beauty queen of only eighteen She had some trouble with herself He was always there to help her She always belonged to someone else He drove for miles and miles and wound up at her door He has had her so many times but somehow He want more "I don't mind spending every day Out on your corner in the pouring rain Look for the girl with the broken smile Ask her if she wants to stay awhile And she will be loved..",  He said. You said to me "Tell me everything, tell me all the things that bother you, come to me when u're sad, you're not alone."  Hey there, 800+ apart. How u're doing? I miss You.  Dramaga, May 2nd 2018. song lyric: She Will Be Loved by Maroon 5

Aku nahkoda hilang kendali dalam badai Kapal terseret arusmu Lautku yang biasanya tenang, tiba-tiba penuh dilema Kau memaksaku masuk dalam pusaran Dan semakin tenggelam Aku pasrah, Sekarang apa? Aku hilang arah Kau harus tanggung jawab. Bogor, 24 April 2017

Perasaanku adalah layang-layang yang pasrah melambung kau permainkan. Mendekat saat kau tarik Terlepas saat kau ulur Tapi, aku bahagia. Setidaknya aku melalang ke udara, bermain bersama angin. Dan yang terindah, melihatmu tertawa riang. Semua itu jauh lebih baik daripada usang terabaikan di rak toko mainan. 25 April 2017

Ketika saya menulis ini, suara lembut David Cook dalam   “Always be My Baby”, Mocca dalam “I remember” melatari saya. Baik, saya mulai. Hai, Hallo.  Apa kabar tuan? Sudah berapa lama sejak tuan menjalani perjalanan yang benar-benar baru? Sudah berapa lama saya diam terpaku dipersimpangan jalan melihat punggung tuan jadi bayang-bayang yang bergerak menjauh? Rasanya sudah lama sekali tak melihat matamu yang sehangat matahari terbit itu. Aku tidak akan bertanya bagaimana perjalanan tuan  sekarang. Saya hanya ingin menyampaikan bahwa saya juga sudah mulai melangkah lagi, meneruskan perjalananku sendiri. Kita berbeda jalan sekarang, how strange it is when u’r not by my side anymore :’).  Tuan, karena jalan kita berbeda, maka apa yang tuan lihat, dengar, dan temui  tentulah berbeda dengan saya. Jadi, jikalau suatu saat jalan kita bermuara pada sebuah pertemuan, mari saling bertukar cerita. Saya ingin mendengarnya sambil menikmati secangkir kopi di sebuah ...

Hai, Venus! Malam-malam yang lalu.... begitu pekat, tapi wajahmu terlihat begitu terang. begitu sepi, tapi tawamu begitu nyaring. begitu tenang, tapi jantungku berdetak tak beraturan. Hai, Venus! Aku menyebutmu Venus, Bintang paling terang  muncul saat fajar karena tangis pertamamu pecah dibawah langit yang dirajainya. Dan saat itulah anugrah untukku dilahirkan. Kamu.